馬兒、故事、與酒 — 緣定Seville

「我已經決定在60歲的時候自我了斷。」

「那離開前記得辦一個離別派對。」

「肯定的。」

「到時，在座的各位都將是特別嘉賓。」

「這七天就像是一場夢一樣。」

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去年底訂下的約定，

背景各異，性格各異，懷著各自的故事，

8位素未謀面的台灣人，從歐洲各地齊聚於西班牙的一座牧場，

老實說，這趟旅行的收穫，超乎想像。

從人生經歷；聊到未來發展；

從國際情勢；聊到家鄉故土；

談感情、談生死、談命途；

有歡笑、有淚水、有驚喜。

年齡、性別、背景的隔閡不存在，

冥冥之中，像是早已相識的老友一般。

牧場成員來自西班牙、義大利、法國、德國、

墨西哥、阿根廷，不同文化的交織在一起，

除此之外，還有牧場的可愛動物們。

潔白但我行我素的Doma，

有公主般脾氣的Dienna，

活潑但平衡待加強的Roma，

每匹馬的性格各異，帶來的都是不同的體驗。

離別前最後的大合照，Doma則不停的用臉磨蹭著我的肩膀。

我則輕輕地回以一個擁抱。

「60歲說長不長，為什麼你決定在60歲結束一生?」

「我想把機會留給年輕人，我在十幾歲時就決定好了。」

「你怎麼看待你自己?」

「我覺得我是個怪人。」

「做自己需要有極大的勇氣。」

「我不會歧視他人，因為我覺得自己就是最爛的人。」

「每個人都有自己的價值，而你，是一個很有魅力且可愛的人。」

「比起付出，實際上是個渴望被給予的人。」

「再怎樣堅強的外表底下，仍然有被愛的權利。」

「你是否曾經對自己的未來有所想像?希望能夠成為一名成熟的大人。」

「有過，但是現在也不強求了。」

「家庭給了我很大的自由，我則不希望辜負他們的期待。」

「你還年輕，多嘗試、多體驗，每個人都有無限的可能。」

「我覺得自己有神經病的潛質。」

「我倒認為在這的各位，本來就都不是一般的人。」

草原上的快活、

餐桌上的滿足、

火爐前的慰藉、

星空下的詩意，

然天下沒有不散的宴席，

至少在彼此的生命中留下了難忘的一筆。

於是乎期待，

當命運線再次交會的那一天。

EN:

"I've decided to end my life at the age of 60."

"Then, before you leave, remember to have a farewell party."

"Absolutely."

"At that time, everyone present will be special guests."

"These seven days have been like a dream."

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So it has begun from the end of last year,

With diverse backgrounds and personalities, each carrying their own stories,

Eight Taiwanese individuals who had never met, gathered at a ranch in Spain,

Honestly, the whole trip was more than my expectations.

From life experiences; discussions about future developments;

From international affairs; talks about hometowns;

Discussions about relationships, life and death, destiny;

There were laughter, tears, and surprises.

Age, gender, and background barriers did not exist,

As if, in the grand scheme, they were friends who had known each other for a long time.

Members of the ranch came from Spain, Italy, France, Germany,

Mexico, Argentina, have different cultures interwoven together,

And, of course, even the cute animals of the ranch.

Doma, white but independent;

Dienna, with a princess-like temperament;

Roma, lively but with a skewed sense of balance;

Each horse had a unique personality, bringing different experiences.

Before parting, in the final group photo, Doma kept rubbing its face against my shoulder.

I responded with a gentle hug.

"Why decide to end your life at 60 when it's still a long way off?"

"I want to leave opportunities for the younger generation; I decided this when I was in my teens."

"How do you see yourself?"

"I feel like I'm a weird person."

"In this era, being yourself requires great courage."

"I won't discriminate against others because I feel like I'm the lowest and worst person."

"Everyone has their own value, and you are a charming and lovely person."

"Rather than giving, in reality, she's someone who desires to receive."

"No matter how strong the exterior, there is still the right to be loved."

"Have you ever imagined your future? Hoping to become a mature adult."

"I did, but now I'm not forcing it."

"My family has given me a lot of freedom, and I don't want to let them down."

"You're still young; try more, experience more, everyone has infinite possibilities."

"I feel like I have the potential for mental illness."

"I think everyone here is not ordinary."

Joy on the grassland,

Satisfaction at the dining table,

Consolation by the fireplace,

Poetry under the starry sky,

But no feast doesn't come to an end,

At least, in each other's lives, an unforgettable chapter was written.

So, looking forward,

To the day when the lines of fate cross once again.